T O N I G H T

Tonight ―sigh―
You can call me stupid crazy creepy or whatsoever. Sorry guys for not being as you wished, i was just stuck.
I wonder how come nichkhun and victoria overcame their awkward moments lol
I'm just now understand awkwardness aaah i wished i could hide myself atm. Crap
Now i'm feeling guilty with ma friends :( sorry for not taking the chance. Sorry for wasting your time *ahh i never asked y'all to made a condition like that* but it didnt make me so ungrateful. Thanks anyway.
And for ehm ―my crush― sorry. It was so silly and emm wasting your time. Really i wanted to tell you a lot. Guess why did i just shut my mouth up? My lips was not having a good coordnation with my brain.
And for the last......
I wont ever forget tonight. As long as i breathe :p
But i dont think if it will be better. Maybe it wont ever be talked ever after.and what abt me? Tch such a creep *sobs*

i call them seniors :p

I’m in proccess of being an ELF kekeke. I’ve known SJ for more about two years. And i like to talk about SJ with ‘senior’ ELFs. I call them seniors cause they are sunbaes (?) who had known SJ longer than me. They know SJ so well kkkkk~ and so welcome with newbies. They’re very kind and not annoying like newbies hhhhhhh so much antis call ELF ‘ababil’ -_- hellooooo not all of ELFs like that. senior ELFs are cooler than newbies. They are not simply trust with ‘murahan’ rumours and spamming then ‘galau’-ing too much about that. I also like their style to face antis. Not blaming antis like newbies do. They’re not kind of ‘senggol-bacok’ ELFs who complain too much and blame anyone who give negative comments to SJ oppas. They have their own way to be fangirls, simple but sweet lol~ and you know what?? They make me love SJ oppas more and moooooore because they still love our oppas in any seasons, and any conditions. Not too much but left an big impression. Kyaaa i love youuu sunbaes :D

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Show me the way to make you happy
I almost to give up going through this way
Any words i said are useless to make you believe that my feeling is worth it
I have been being strong enough to hold you, to defend my feeling
But you're always like that, as usual, never miss me
Really i won't be able, until whenever i still won't be able to hate you cause i can't do that
It's hard for me, really hard for me to set apart between love and hate that i feel.
Do you know that i'm sad by myself?
Without you, i'm being alone
I've been waiting so long in the silence..
you like me halfheartedly,
I'm sick because of you.............