You just waltzed back in my life like you deserved to be here or something. You could have come back anytime, anytime before now. But you waited and waited. And you know what? It's too late.
I kept waiting for you to come back, and you didn't. You never came back, until now. Anytime before now I would have welcomed you back with open arms. But you're too late this time. I gave you more than enough chances to make things right and you didn't.
I opened myself up to get cut wide open. I finally moved on. I'm happy and I don't need you anymore. That's something I never though I'd say. I'm sorry if I'm not ready to throw all of that away to let you back in and make me look like a fool when you fuck me over. Again. I cant put myself through that again. You cant erase the past.
The way we are now, is not my fault. I didn't cheat, lie, or push you away. You did this to yourself. I'm sorry if you cant find anyone who amounts to me, which you probably won't, but it's your own doing. I’m not saying this out of spite or pity or anger even. I'm saying this because I know that no girl will ever amount to what I was for you, what you were for me. No girl will ever connect and feel for you the way I did. Maybe that same will go for me. There's never going to be another guy that is just like you, who loved me like you did. But I'm ready to move on, to experience what else is out there. I cant put myself through what you did to me again. I need change.
If we're meant to be, we'll find each other again one day and maybe I'm fall madly in love with you again, just like before. If not, I really hope you find happiness in the decisions you made, because God knows I would never have chosen this for us. But I also cant fix what you created, and I don't want to anymore.

Sometimes you have to stop waiting for someone to come along and fix whats wrong. Maybe you have to stop feeling sorry for yourself and realize that no one else has the answer. Sometimes, you have to be your own hero

Don't bother saying your sorry because it's useless when you don’t mean it. And don't bother being friends, you don't deserve my friendship. And don't bother expecting me to be there for you anymore, because I won't be there for someone who was never there for me

Sebuah tulisan bijaksana dari masgun (hehe favorit) tentang hidup yang terkadang tidak berjalan seperti keinginan.

"Harus Mengalami"

Hati kita kadang harus terluka. Agar kita tahu bagaimana rasanya dikhianati. Agar kita tidak mengkhianati. Hidup kita kadang harus hancur. Agar kita tahu bagaimana rasanya dicaci. Agar kita tidak ikut mencaci. Pikiran kita kadang harus jenuh. Agar kita tahu bagaimana rasanya dijauhi. Agar kita tidak menjauhi.

Seluruh cerita hidup kita kadang harus acak-acakan, harus banyak lubang, terluka di sana-sini. Agar kita tahu bagaimana rasanya dibenci, ditinggalkan, ditipu, diolok-olok, diasingkan, dibiarkan. Agar kita tidak menjadi bagian dari orang-orang yang merusak cerita hidup orang lain.

Seluruh cinta kita kadang harus hancur berantakan. Agar kita tahu bagaimana rasanya tidak berbalas, tahu bagaimana rasanya khawatir, menunggu, ditunggu, diburu waktu, dikhianati, bertepuk sebelah tangan, berharap, bersatu. Agar cinta kita menjadi lebih bijaksana, tidak gegabah dalam mengambil keputusannya.

Hidup kita kadang harus seperti itu. Hanya agar kita tahu bagaimana rasanya. Agar kita belajar dan menjadi lebih bijaksana.

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I really wish i could hurt you like you hurt me. Break your heart into a million pieces and watch you trying to put it back together. Just because that's exactly what you did to me. Just so you would know how much it hurts. But i could never do that to you. Even if i tried. Because i'll always care about you regardless of all the shit you put me through.